There's going to be more Vs System stuff on there than most things, as that's my big collectable thing nowadays, but there'll still be some of the random ramblings too.
I've screwed up big time. I have £96 left to live off at University, until the magic £1900 I'm owed by my mother finally comes through. It's silly really. On the false hope of getting the money early, I have everything I've wanted for years, but now, barely enough money to eat for no more than 3 or 4 weeks.
I think the one thing that's kept from completely losing it at this moment in time is that special girl. She may not think she's actually done that much other than be a great friend, but it's all meant so much to me at a time when everything's just fallen apart. I may have been a bit 'off' this weekend, and if you're reading this, I'm sorry.
I know, in my heart, that once all's done for both of us, you're the woman I want to be with more than any other.
You are beautiful Ellen, both on the inside and the out.
I still need to get the last couple of boxes packed, then weigh them, then see how much it's going to cost to get them shipped up to Dundee.
Thankfully, I got the letter from the SLC, and I get a lot of money from the government. Around £3,201 as a loan, and £2,451 as a grant, meaning I can live on £47 a week without work. I'll probably get a weekend job so I have that extra spending cash though.
At least this means I'll have enough money to visit different conventions, and the people I care about and really want to see again.
1. Grab the nearest book. 2. Open the book to page 123. 3. Find the fifth sentence. 4. Post the text of the next 3 sentences on your LJ along with these instructions. 5. Don’t you dare dig for that "cool" or "intellectual" book in your closet! I know you were thinking about it! Just pick up whatever is closest.
"Press the [ENTER] button.
The [PROGRAM CHANGE] button and [EDIT] button will blink.
You scored as Captain James T. Hook. You are very arrogant and proud, you like to flaunt your power and wealth and often times stab your companions in the back to get your way.
Well, in the past week, a bit has happened, most notably, my birthday, so I'm now nineteen-nuh-nuh-nuh-n-n-nineteen.
Most of my friends were actually in the area/country this time, so in all, a much better day than my 18th. Amongst presents and purchases were the first three seasons of Family Guy on DVD, Placebo's 'Meds', an amazing hand-made card from Donna & Serena, an edited birthday picture from Ellen, and a PS2 with Devil May Cry 1+2.
Also, started playing through Quake 4. About bloody time really.
Well, in a quick update, I've managed to finally complete Silent Hill 3 and Call of Cooki... *ahem* Cthuhlu. I've now restarted Beyond Good & Evil in a hope to finish that before I lose the save-file again like last time.
I'm joining an IRC 'Ultimate' version of Galaxy Girl from City of Heroes, which has made a rather drastic retcon change to Max, quite possibly the biggest retcon one can make without having the character not born in the first place...
Other than that, mostly work, or being cooped up inside with nothing to do, being kept sane by Ellen. *waves*
My exams, and my time at college are both finally over. The Philosophy exam may not give me the best grade I've ever had, but it was fun to sneak in examples about Chuck Norris and Thundercats for the questions about David Hume.
Did some celebratory shopping in Worthing after meeting up with Megan to give her the Casanova DVD I had to order for her, and purchased the World of Darkness rulebook (seeing as I got the Vampire: The Requiem book, and then found out I needed the WoD ruleset as well). Also got Depeche Mode's 'Playing The Angel' to complete my back catalogue, and Keane's 'Under The Iron Sea' for the hell of it.
Picked up GTA: San Andreas for the PC as well, seeing as it's *finally* come down in price.
Well, my Psychology exam went better than expected. So much better, that I actually did the question on Nature/Nurture. Hopefully, I've managed to get the half-marks needed for a 'C'-grade overall.
Just Philosophy to go now, and then it's all over at last.
Last couple of nights, I've finally got partially back into the swing of things at Galaxy Girl on City of Heroes. The particular jerk who originally ruined things for me has taken his leave, so a tentative return is in place.
I've also budged my way into the 'Hunt For Requiem' plot Doctor Temporis is running, and of course, making sure I add an underlying subplot of subterfuge and deceit as well...
Got 'Some Great Reward' and 'Music For The Masses' through the post this morning too.
Psychology Exam on Wednesday, and I am nowhere near prepared enough.
You Are 88% Gentleman
No doubt about it, you are a total gentleman. You please the pickiest ladies, and you make everyone in a room feel comfortable.
Let's try and remember what I can of the past few days...
- I finally completed Killer 7 on the Gamecube on Wednesday after about a year or so since it first came out, which is a fantastic game. The artwork on it is a refreshing break from the norm, and the overly-confusing plot pleased me to no end. Not to mention, the game just felt *good* to play, with no annoying niggles to ruin it.
- Trying to get a meal out sorted for my birthday, or at least as close to it as possible considering it's on a Thursday.
- Went on a spending frenzy today. I've purchased my activation fee for 'Dark and Light', so will probably be playing that with Quilla later on, 'Sgt Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band' by The Beatles, and five, yes FIVE Depeche Mode albums. (Admittedly two are coming through the post) Some Great Reward, Music For The Masses, Songs of Faith & Devotion, Ultra, and Exciter.
This leaves me with just Playing The Angel left to complete the Depeche Mode back catalogue.
Well, not much happened today, so a recap of yesterday:
Tried revision, mixed with Killer 7. That didn't work, so I started to clear my room of things that I won't be taking to Dundee in September. I managed to get rid of most of the bits of useless papers and magazines, and filled my entire recycling bin.
I also found over 400 Pokemon cards, which will make me a rich man when they become collectable again.
Deadlands was moved to yesterday evening due to people being unable to make it tonight, and despite the entire town being surrounded by evil cultists, we all survived. My backup plan was to grab a robe, put it on, and use my 4d10 Bluff skill to jibber-jabber my way out of trouble.
Visited Toni today, who I haven't seen in bloody ages (could possibly be a year or so). She's still her same crazy self, and despite her claims to the contrary, I wasn't bored out of my skull.
I see England 'won' their first match. I'll leave it at that.
Writing painfully after just failing to fit two giant crisps in my mouth at once...
It's been a nice, chilled-out day today, save for some jerk undercutting me whilst I'm cycling and making a right turn. Travelled all the way to college to renew a library book, only to find I could have renewed it by phone. Three years of going there, and I was never informed of this.
After those small irritations, mostly sat back and relaxed, which I haven't really done properly for a while. Started work on a cover of Depeche Mode's "Fly On The Windscreen", trudged ever onwards in Silent Hill 3, and watched X-Men cartoons.
Thankfully, a day of rest today. I've completely spring-cleaned by PC area, and gotten rid of six year's worth of PC Gamer and PC Zone coverdiscs, and actually *cleaned* my worktop. With a soapy cloth! And water!
Getting there in completing Silent Hill 3 now, although progress was halted by the game's graphics becoming corrupted, and unfixable with a reset. Problem being, there's never been a patch released for it.
With not much time left until I go move to Dundee for University, I did a bit of reflection on the past few years whilst at work.
I barely see anyone I knew from High School anymore, probably about 10-20 at most, all of my current friends are from college, or over the internet. Apart from some obvious reasons of some people attending different colleges or dropping education altogether, I can't see why this has happened, but it has.
I also got thinking about Victoria. She started work at the same place as me at the same time, and we got along really well, and it seemed that things between us might have gotten rather quickly to 'more than just friends'. However, she found out she was pregnant from her ex-boyfriend, and she went to her Mum's place in Birmingham or Liverpool, I forget which one.
Things, as you may have guessed, didn't happen between us, but I do think about whether they could have. I didn't purposefully shun her because she was pregnant. I'd like to think I could have coped in being there for her and the baby, but I realise that in truth, at 16, I probably wouldn't have been able to at all. I'll never know now, but it always comes back to linger on my mind from time to time as to whether I made the right decision.
Of course, I could say that things haven't worked out too badly. Yes, I'm single, but I'd like to think that there is someone with whom I might have a chance in the future, just not right now. And I think, that after the example above, I'm willing to wait, rather than pass up another opportunity and be left thinking 'what if?' for the rest of my life.
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